I’ve never been into men. Alway women. Only dated women and only slept with them as of recently. My bottom dysphoria started getting really bad. The thought I’m not pleasing them and I’m not getting satisfaction the was a cis man would. The thought I can’t just whip it out or orgasm the way I want. I feel less than. I can’t give them kids and that one hurts.

I wanted to feel normal in a sexual manor so I got desperate and slept with a dude. I wasn’t into it or into him but it made me feel enough to satisfy someone for the first time. Then after that I started doing it more. I feel so insecure after but Atleast I can give someone actual what they want. I wanna be cis so badly that I think I just sleep with them to be able to feel the body I so desperately want.