i apologize if that is the incorrect flair; i figured that it fit what i was going to be asking about.

TW for: internalized transphobia, fatphobia (?)

i bit about myself; i’m a transmasculine enby and really only identify as a trans man when dealing with the general (cis) public.

n-e-ways, i am incredibly interested in having a romantic relationship but it feels like no one within my area has any interest in me. like i get it! i’m fat (i can’t really loose weight but i can maintain it) and i don’t really have much going on for me in terms of a face. i basically feel like i’m only there to support my friends with their relationships. as i like to say, coaches don’t play.

however, while talking to my bestie, i was rudely reminded that i’m not wanted. no matter how many times i put myself out there, no matter how many times i attempt to start a conversation, i am either ghosted or we have a volley of around 5 messages before every and all replies stop. she’s a cis girl and has so many gentleman suitors messaging her it’s ridiculous.

i’m so so tired of putting my heart on the line while she has so many people to ask for her hand.

sorry if that was too rambling, it’s close to my literal bedtime.