I just got off the phone with my grandpa (who is 72 and I’ve lived with him for roughly 4 years, moved out for college 10 ish months ago). He said something along the lines of “you want to know how fucked up my Friday (my top surgery consolation) was? You are wanting to cut off your breasts while the two women in my life (his sister and girlfriend) are trying desperately to keep theirs (they have small (unsure if they’re cancerous) tumors/lumps in their breasts).” While he said this like a statement and not with malicious intent, it threw me so off guard. He ended that segment of our talk with “it’s hard to support you, but I support you. The ball is in your court.”

Were from a very red southern state, and are from a very rural area. He has always been open minded to my transition, and has supported me even though I can tell he wished I wasn’t trans. I’ve been on t for over a year now, and while he went to my consultation for my surgery and was there for me, it just made me feel like he doesn’t want to be apart of it. I don’t blame him if he doesn’t want to, but if he is he can’t say shit like that to me. He’s the only family member I have that supports me. Hell, he’s one of the very few family members I have left. I’m just heart broken.