Tw, transphobia and probably some controversial ways of thinking?

I had a discussion with some apparently transphobic people. They did not understand why anyone would want this, so i tried to explain that i do not want this. In fact, i hate that I'm trans, but it's a part of me that i simply have to accept. They think it's some kind of disease, like you're crazy. And i agree in the sense that it's an illness. But not one that can be defined as "crazy", but something comparable to phantom pain. The brain has a wrong body-map. One of a different gender. And the only treatment is transition. I wish there was a pill that would make me content with my gender, a therapy, an institution, but alas, there's not.

I have quite a few trans friends, and they all seem perfectly content if not happy with the fact they're trans. So i was just kinda thinking, I'm not the only one who thinks this way right? I don't think it's internalized transphobia, because i like the way i am, as a person, as a being, and transition has made me feel a lot better. But i wish i did not have to go through all of this. I can't be the only one feeling like this right?

And if you don't feel like this, how. What do you feel? I'm genuinely curious. How do you feel about the fact that you're trans. The fact you need hormones and surgeries to be okay with your body? Do you have any tips?

(Ps, this made me realize i have been struggling with dysphoria quite a bit more lately so i will schedule another appointment with my gender therapist. But my question still stands)

Edit: wow what an amazing and also overwhelming amount of responses, i did not expect that. I have not read all of them yet, but i have read quite a few, and i just want to say thank you. Thank you for sharing your stories, struggles, and expiernces. It definitely makes me feel a lot less alone, and very heard. It's sad that a lot of us can relate to what I'm feeling, but I'm relieved to read I'm not alone, not by far. I will get to all of your responses in time. I appreciate all of you