**UPDATE: I'm feeling much better now, thank you so much everyone who has stepped up and given advice and support towards me today, it really helped me reflect and come out of a dysphoria spiral.

I've been on T for about 8 days ago now, I am using testogel and doing a single pump (12.5mg) and I'm kinda frustrated that nothing about me has changed much, at least not towards any of my most desirable outcomes (deepening of voice, development of adams apple, thickening of hair, body shape shift, facial changes) and im wondering if that's just to be expected on week 1 testogel?

I'm highly considering bumping up to my 2 pumps that I'm supposed to be doing in a months time just because I'm so frustrated by this.

I'm worried the gradual change I initially wanted might strike my chances of developing a much lower voice or an Adams apple too because im 23 and most of my growing is done so maybe it could apply to the cartilage also... I know its never too late to transition but I feel like im fighting a clock against my own biology idk what to do