i live in a small town so theres not many people or things to do around town. its also my first year since graduation from highschool. ive had the same friend group since 10th grade and they just arent what they were. they all still hangout with each other but never invite me. ive always been there for them through everything but they were neverr there for me. i have no clue how to make new friends but i want out of this group. i want to leave them and remove them on all social medias but i dont want to be alone or stuck or crawling back cause i couldnt find anyone else. plus one of them id like to keep incontact with but i honestly think he is gay for me. when we sit in my car and smoke he his always leaning mad far to my side like hes trying to kiss me. when we are in my garage sitting in chairs talking hes moving closer and stuff. nothing wrong with being gay but i am not and he knows that. he says hes not gay but everytime a joke happens he gets quiet or doesnt clap back with a joke but i would like to keep him around because of his father who is a business man i look up to and want to work with and stuff. back in highschool the jokes i made along with them were insensitive and stuff and they havent outgrown that yet where i have. i guess im writing this for two reasons. just to get it off my chest so i can stop thinking about it and to ask yall what you would do. i dont want to be lonely but i already feel i am because they dont care about me. maybe im just crazy. thank you