I recently discovered about fraysexuality and as a high libido fray in a monogmous marriage I feel so supressed not just by being in a monogmous marriage but in that even if I was in a non monogmous marriage societys stigmas against anything other than monogamy would make it almost impossible to meet my needs. The only time I was able to meet my needs sexually was when I was in my 20s and working in a nightclub and in situations where I would have one night stands every 2 - 4 weeks over a peroid of around 2 years. This was the only time I enjoyed sex and fufilled those needs. Now I am in my 40s, married and settled down etc and most other women around my age are not interested in one off non emotional sex, which ofcourse is totally fine. So my nature of being fray and being able to meet my sexual needs is pretty much impossible. I was thinking though in an ideal world if I could have sex with a different person every week this would be the only way I could a) Enjoy sex again and b) meet my annoying sexual needs due to my fraysexuality and high libido.

Two questions here?

1) Who else would love this to be able to have sex with a different person every week or more to the point would need this in order to meet their sexual needs due to being fray?

2) How can I deal with this feeling of being supressed sexually, feel like wanting to pull my hair out and a strong emotion of being trapped and supressed that I do not fit into society and no one understands me and I do not fit in society being fray as society is not open to meet my needs. I know it sounds selfish and this is my issue and my nature and I do not expect 50% or whatever of society to suddenly become high libido frays who need to all have sex with new people every week and everyone else is doing it and its a part of normal accepted life. So how can I deal with this huge feeling of being in the closet and this strong awful feeling of suppression.