I'm a very indecisive person and unfortunately its hard to trust myself making big life decisions like this but I've been in a hole for the past year and now I'm recently unemployed. I'm collecting benefits and doing DoorDash on the side, and now I'm actually coming home with slightly more than I did in my last job which was full time $15 an hour.

The problem is I'm working so much but neglecting my future. I can't do this forever. I have some things to think about, but man is it so hard at this age. I just feel so lost, it's like losing your mom at a shopping mall as a child.

I already got a free tuition for 4 years of college and I started with a Psychology degree but after 1 semester switched to Accounting because I was scared I wasn't going to be able to make a sustainable income. My mom is an Accountant so additional pressure from my parents didn't help. The next 4 years I begrudgingly completed my courses with good grades, but I added so many other things just to keep my interest. I minored in philosophy and had a concentration in business forensics. Taking classes in college made me very curious about things, I began to question a lot more, I began to form my own opinions that I was actually able to defend. So, I did a lot of googling, a lot of redditing, researching, reading books, watching videos, etc. And this is in several different subjects but it is mostly philosophy, biology, a little bit of engineering but not really, social work/psychology, etc. My hobbies are mainly just musical, but right now I just play music with my band all around the east coast basically. I've watched producers mix levels on our tracks and that also fascinated me. Anything electronic is probably super vast and interesting. I've also seriously considered Arts Administration grad school for a while, but again I don't want to waste time and my own money if I end up not liking it. The only reason I would go into it is because I think I would be good at managing events but also because I would actually be able to tie a hobby of mine (music) somewhat to my degree. And before I go back to school again I want to see that I'm capable of a serious big boy job and sustaining it for a good amount of time.

So, really a lot of things spark my interest. I know its broad, but if I were to define it more specifically it's basically anything that has to do with life itself. I don't know what it is. I just have this inclination that I was put on this earth to explain things about the universe if that makes any sense. I want something thats going to mind-fuck me, not a bunch of numbers on a screen. But then people tell me "oh just go back to school again for something else" is way waaay harder than it sounds. I can't waste the rest of my 20's still trying to figure out my career, I need to make a decision and I need to make it soon. I also really don't have the money or time to be able to work a job that covers my expenses along with tuition/taking classes.