hey! so I stumbled here after google searching ,information on going back to college potentially and just wanted to get some advice on what you guys think I should do...

let me start here:

So I've always been passionated about fashion design since I was 15. throughout the years I've tried pursuing it here and there. Even launched a few things (nothing on a big scale, just some small releases). My situation is unique id like to think and I'm going to try and best explain my thoughts so here it goes haha. So for context I'm a social media influencer, something I've been doing for more then 12 years (before the influx of TikTok influencers, because everyones that now haha )and the content I post is comedy/skit based. Earlier on it was fun, my popularity honestly came out of nowhere. 1 silly video going viral and boom here we are, but it was never something I've been passionate about. Yes it has its perks: social status, networking, meeting supporters on a regular who tell me how much I make their day, made some great money.. blew through some haha highs and lows but it just doesn't light my fire the way designing does. I haven't posted consistent content since about February of this year, personal life and feeling uninspired the reasoning. Although I have posted a few times early September on TikTok but nothing solid, I've just still been in this "over it" feeling I guess.

since putting my content on pause, the end of September I've been doing a lot of self work. I thought to myself let me look inward to see what's going on and why ive been feeling this way. I started Reflecting, trying to become the best version of myself, cutting out toxic habits and people, shit even working out! (down -18 haha) its been going great. Ive just been in search of my spark you know. In the mist of that I told myself let me explore my fashion again. for the past 2 months ive been creating like crazy, so many ideas firing , so much sketching , so much inspiration. It's now honestly become something I have been looking forward to do everyday now. I have this gut feeling of knowing that fashion is something that I was born to do.

So now I'm in this limbo, all of this got me thinking if I should sign up to college and study fashion design? if I should just continue making my content and use that income to invest in myself from ground up and start my brand that way? possibly create a separate account for my brand that won't associate itself with my current social following ?( tired merging my current following with some pieces I created; 3 years ago and it went terrible! so many critiques, no-one taking anything serious. I guess Its hard for people to take you serious especially when your content is comedy based and more then half of the people aren't into fashion just "free laughs") or maybe studying business rather then fashion as an alternative? hmmmm

I haven't been to college in so long I wouldn't even know where to start if I decide to go that route. or what fashion colleges would be worth going to especially in this economy. Ive always wanted to go to Parsons "The New School" but from another forum on reddit I read, some alumnus where saying its not worth the money and its more of an aesthetic for rich kids using their parents money haha half of them stated that they aren't even in fashion now themselves years later.

anywho I feel like I'm talking your ear off haha but Id love to hear your advice or thoughts :)

XO