Hi everyone, I am new on to this subreddit anyways I feel that I am lost in life. I am 37 M; I have graduated of a master's degree of an aerospace related field but not engineering. I have been struggling since the past year of trying to go for my field of studies which is Aerospace to go for the Space Sector, but it's been difficult I have got some interviews but as of recent nothing has come up. This is getting me worried, anxious and in a depression, suffering a mid-life crisis, thinking I don't have a future which is scaring me and shattering my heart and hope to pieces.

Anyways a background of me I am working in retail since almost 16 years of my life, and I want to move out of there. I am so sick and tired of retail it sickens me every time I go to work in the store there. I want to leave so badly but the thing is I can't because it's the only job I have and if I leave that's it no income which hurts me. But I have also been working part time and I am done with Retail, don't want to do retail anymore in my life.

As I went for my master's I rediscovered my love for Aerospace Engineering I love how awesome it is and said that's what I want to do. But problem with me is that I don't have an Engineering background. But I want to work in cool space projects, even defense as well with rockets, spacecrafts and the like. But I am nowhere near there and said to myself this is where I want to be I want to do that. I want to be part of an awesome team building incredible machines that are going to other planets and into space. Such as NASA's Artemis, DoD Space and the like.

So, it's making me reconsider of going back to university for Aerospace Engineering. I am looking at a couple of universities now but yeah just going through a rough patch in my life and also applying for employment at the university. Also want to get an Aerospace Engineering background.

So, all in all, I want to where I work at to go for the Space sector, don't have an engineering degree but is planning to get it so I can have a STEM/ ABET Degree. Gosh I feel such a failure. I have a B.A.S. degree, I got an M.S. and still nothing.

What is it that I can do as a person in my late 30s trying to restart my life and course correct myself of my trajectory of my future. I want a future.