Me Femboy 23 ex 21 this year I met him during lockdown on grinder of all places and we got along shared hobbies good sexual chemistry just both really busy but I have borderline personality disorder and have serious issues with attachment especially to people I just met so it's what happened with my ex my mind would make me act very unstable and I deeply loath myself for it to the degree I broke up with him and cut contact with him for 5 months by text and I know how horrible it was too do but my black and White thinking constructed him as a villain for no other reason than he was busy fast forward to today on my grinder app a profile showed up it was him but he's super muscled now and very otter like completely different than when I first met him apart from his Very vivid eyes and no matter how much I change my grinder filter his profile appears every week and each time I find it more and more difficult not to match with him but as I cut off the relationship I feel like it's purely self indulgent of me to message him and it would not bother me but stupid profile keeps appearing no matter how hard I try not to view it and I dunno what to do block him for simply existing ? Message him and have a awarked conversation? Ignore him ? Please someone give me some useful advice because my stupid brain is freaking out on how to approach this situation without hurting him and in a mature way Also I'm aware I'm the asshole of the story