This is more me bragging, because I'm excited, and can vent my plans and goals here, compaired to just family where, while I'm accepted sexuality wise, I'd rather keep my other desires to myself.

I'm down a solid 40 to 50lbs after trial and error over the past two years, going from 257lbs (116kg) all the way down to about 210, 208 (95kg). I just have another 40 to go! My goals have shifted a lot, from unrealistic to more or less realistic, thank the gods, so I'm aiming for about 170/175lbs (79kg) to reach the sorta slender look I want.

Not to mention it's the recommended weight goal by my doctor to avoid health issues, so I'm going with that.

Other than weight, workouts are going great. I was lazy, and didn't start on my upper body until around January, but luckily my lower body I worked on back in August, and I'm noticing little by little how toned I'm getting in some areas. I'm hoping even more that I don't over do it on the weight or toning, so I can have that balance of tone and chub for curves. Hence why I'm not on board with my old goals of doing gym bro shit every day, and cutting down to 150lbs. At that point I'd be an underweight body builder, lol.

The workouts I do take no more than an hour or so, maybe less, but I'm still gaining a lot from them, albiet slowly.

I'm praying by the end of this summer I can start picking out new clothing and stuff, find two or three styles I like, donate/sell my old oversized clothing (because I've gone down a pant size, maybe two, as well as down one shirt size), allowing me to step into some of the stuff I've tried. Twink skater dude stuff, so casual jeans, button downs, converse, more formal, how'd my friend put it? "Yas queen" teacher stuff, so non denim pants, nicer boots, nicer button downs and such, and then my casual stuff for work or lazy days off. So my work boots, shorts or jeans, simple tees. All the works.

But most of all. Trying out feminine stuff. As if the fitted regular cut denim pants that definitely make my butt look big didn't already add the sorta feminine but masc look I want, I need thighhighs, corsets, Oprah gloves, and makeup.

So over all, I'm just pain excited to see what's to come, but I still got work to do before I get there!