So I'm a boy, 21. My dream is to have a healthy body, hopefully with some feminine attributes and curves. But as of now, with my depression and everything else, I'm stuck with this dumb "dad bod". I'm not out to my family so i don't shave my body hair and the only girly thing i own is some thigh highs.

When people really have a goal they commit to it. They make changes and see results. They have amazing before/after videos and their accomplishments have strengthened them. So as i sit here, unable to be a femboy (or gnc boy/androgynous/whatever), is it just because i don't want it enough? I want it very much even though i know it's not gonna fix my big issues. But it's still something i want in the future... Or do i?

Sorry if this seems cryptic or confusing, i just feel very lost right now and just dream of a future where i can be comfortable in my own skin. Thank you for your help.