So a few days ago I was bashed pretty harshly by my roommates for being Pansexual and open to the idea of unconditionally loving someone no matter their physical condition but more so love their qualities and individuality. I explained to them that I’ve always been this way and only just recently tried to understand my more sexual aspects after I spent a good amount of the last 3 years reading psychology books and healing my childhood traumas. I spent most of My childhood as a s/a victim and was stunted from exploring or experiencing much in my life. I still haven’t opened up much or explored anything. I’ve barely dated anyone over my late teens and spent my time figuring out how to Life. And I got pretty good it I feel. But after being attacked and called things like disgusting and wrong and the like… I dunno i just don’t feel comfortable with myself anymore. It’s been a few days since they started on me and I’ve tried to release the stress and anxiety but being here knowing I’m never going to be accepted is tearing me up. I don’t want to feel like I’m gross for being me or liking softer guys. I don’t seek sex and I’ve never even had a bf. I’ve hardly experienced anything and I’m kinda demotivated even more. Eehhh. I dunno, I’ve given tons of advice about dealing with stress and I do know a lot about this stuff. I just never actually had people close to me, stop and reject me after years of knowing me. Only because I expressed a innocent curiosity of mine about guys I’ve never had. I think feminine guys are very important in way of curing toxic masculinity in the world and helping men find their own ways of finding creative or softer solutions and ways of being. It’s not fair to anyone to always have to be hypermasculine or live as one thing. I hate that I can’t even express my own feelings or femininity without hate being thrown at me.
I try to be so kind and loving to everything 😞

You guys are also the best people to talk too about weirdos. I’m being stalked at work by a 50 year old man and I haven’t mentioned it to anyone. I have a gun. I just don’t want to get anyone hurt or anything. My boss knows and is waiting for him to Try something. But not Being able to mention it because people act weird. Again. Sucks.