I’m about to turn 36 and dating alone is difficult let alone being a femboy in private trying to navigate the dating world. I guess I would love to find a man that would accept me as a guy in public and even everyday life. But in private and the bedroom I’d be totally his girl. I think for me, I’d rather blend in with society and friends/family.

I never liked labels but a gay relationship didn’t feel right to me chemistry wise. So I started to pursue straight men but it only became a sexual thing. I think I want that relationship but also with the spark of attraction between two people. For me, being feminine and having a man loving my femininity is very important to me. Most gay men aren’t looking for feminine. So my main quest is to find that man that maybe always thought he was straight but then realized he wanted a feminine boy.

It’s not that I’m ashamed of who I am, but I prefer to just keep my private life private. That’s why I’d rather have people mistake us as two best friend, roommates or heck even a gay couple but in private no one would know that he’s my man and I’m his girl.

I live in Texas so it’s mostly conservative. I’m actually pretty conservative myself minus the whole bigotry part. Sometimes I wish I was straight or just fully gay so I can date like a normal person.

I always told myself that I didn’t need a man. I’m independent. Then as I get older, I wish I had my person going on dates with me, fun trips all over the world, and just taking long walks and hikes. Maybe I’ve become soft and not the tough independent person I thought I was lol

“And Goodness knows The Wicked's lives are lonely Goodness knows The Wicked die alone It just shows when you're Wicked You're left only On your own” ❤️‍🔥