Is it bad that I sometimes feel ashamed/embarrassed of being a femboy? I’ve been a “closeted” femboy for a while now, and it all started when I stumbled upon femboys on Reddit, TikTok, Instagram, etc and found myself really attracted to femboys and their style ever since.

Now I secretly dress up in girly/feminine clothes and find myself feeling more attracted to feminine guys and sometimes even guys as a whole. I still find girls attractive too so idrk what’s going on with my sexuality.

Recently tho, I’ve been feeling more ashamed as no one in my family would ever accept me if I were to come out, and are strongly homophobic. Before I began dressing up and calling myself a femboy I was quite masculine, I would go to the gym regularly, and would’ve never had expected to become a femboy, so coming out would be a big shock to everyone ik.

I’ve constantly felt like going back to how I was before, but I’ve never been happier ever since I’ve became a femboy, whereas I was depressed beforehand. I feel like ever since I have became a femboy I’ve had an awakening, and ik this is who I wanna be, but idk how I can manage to keep it going before getting caught.

Recently I’ve had situations where I’ve almost exposed myself, for example almost accidentally saying that I’ve shaved my legs, and almost mentioning my femboy clothes. I feel like I’ve been acting more “zesty” without knowing it in front of family and friends which is scary to think about because how much longer can I keep this up before someone realizes who I truly am?

I feel like the worst part is I have no one to relate to or talk to these problems about, I can’t even come out to any family or friends as ik they would get mad and upset. My biggest current fear is getting caught lacking by people from my school or my family, I would feel so embarrassed and it’s lowk scary to think about.

Like tbh is there even any femboys who have managed to move out before anyone had found out about their true identity? And if so how? Please let me know🙏