For years I thought I was just a kinky cis-man and than realized that some things I perceived as kinks were heavily rooted in dysphoria, so to some extend I am still working those things but after a few recent discussion posts I think I have finally figured everything out and ready to start earnestly look for a dominant.

I would describe myself as context dependent gender fluid. In normal every day contexts I am middle of the road nonbinary and in sexual contexts I am 100% female. I am currently still presenting masculine and only to those closest to me. I plan to start presenting in an androgynous nonconforming way fairly and coming out publicly as nonbinary. I do not plan to publicly be out as gender fluid however because people who I am not sexual with do not need to know that. I have severe genital dysphoria and definitely want GCS someday so that I can have a vagina.

I have long brown hair and blue eyes and am 5'11 around 260 lbs. I dropped out of College after 3 semesters, than after doing a variety of things ended up working on a dairy goat farm in rural NY for a few years. I left the farm to go back to school in my home state of Texas to become a high school biology teacher. I am very passionate about LGBT issues and hope that I can make a difference in the lives of LGBT students when I become a teacher. As for hobbies I am currently able to engage in, I am kind of basic. I enjoy playing chess (mostly online) and video games as well as watching shows (Buffy and Parks&Rec are my favorites) and Cubs baseball. While living in NY I developed two very different interests that I am currently unable to really engage in. Watching broadway shows and breeding show quality dairy goats. I also really want to travel after graduation and visit both natural and urban areas.

My gender identity is not a kink and would need to be respect in that I want to be treated as gender neutral person in nonsexual contexts and female in sexual contexts. If you are unwilling to do this you are not the Domme for me.

I would also need a Domme who was willing to use a strap-on on me and would let me perform oral on her. However as submissive I would let my Domme choose when and how often I get to do these things just so long as I get to do them. I am a fan of large fantasy dildos and can easily fit my small size/medium firmness Bad Dragon Sleipnir which has a diameter 2.15 iches and I am looking to eventually move up to very large toys. What can I say i'm a size queen. I also am quite partial to using the title "Daddy" for my Domme but would call her whatever she wants to be called. Just know that liking be called Daddy is a huge plus.

As long as those two needs are met on my Domme's terms I would be happy to let her control the rest of the dynamic just as long as it does not go against my limits, so I have decided to dedicate the rest of this post to the things I won't do so you can know if I will be able to meet your needs for a sub because I plan to be very detailed and anything not on this list I will do regardless of whether or not it personally interests me.

1. This is the most important and probably most unconventional limit. Due to my dysphoria i can't stand having sexual partners touch my penis. Any sex act involving it are out of the question. I touch it myself just so that I can cum because i do enjoy orgasms and have yet to achieve a full prostate orgasm. However if I start to be able to regularly achieve prostate orgasms I will never touch it in a sexual context again.

2. Gender related humiliation. This goes both ways anything that is intentionally made to make me feel like a man is out of the question. Also any "sissy" related humiliation is too. I am not a sissy I am submissive enby. However anything that makes me feel more femine in an affirming way would be greatly appreciated

3. Having certain types of sexual partners other than me. I would be fine with my Domme having any sort of binary male sexual partner whether he cis or trans, Dom sub or vanilla any man you are with will not make me jealous. However I would not be comfortable with my Domme having female or NB subs other than me, nor vanilla partners who are female or NB. Well maybe a demiboy would be fine. Having a female or NB Domme would be fine though.

4. Chastity and orgasm denial. My genitals are my main source of dysphoria and are the one part of my body that is for me and me alone. Giving over control of them is not sexy to me.

5. Anything that causes permanent bodily harm

6. Anything that involves non-consenting bystanders

7. Forcing me to eat types of meat I refuse to for ethical reasons. This includes all mammals as well as octopus.

8. Anything that is illegal

9. Perform sex acts with members of my own family (yes I know this is not something that would ever come up by I am trying to list everything I would not do)

10. Force me to not take the required steps to get GCS

11. Force me to get any sort of body modification

I thinks that's about it. Other things like eating poop and being suspended by hooks in my skin, I would really not want to do but would be willing to go with it if it really makes my Domme happy and was not an every day thing. Any other extreme act like that, that you are into feel free to ask about and maybe its a hard limit but I think I thought of everything I would never do.

Like I said I am in the DFW area but willing to start things online and see where it goes for the right person.