To begin, I do want to clarify my limits. I am not looking for a sexual dynamic. I may want to discuss my sexual traumas, but I am not going to jerk off for you or have sex or send nudes or anything of that notion. I want this to be purely platonic, psychological torture.

I’ve always been enamored by female dominant abuse in movies. I’ll see a woman controlling, manipulating, gaslighting a man, and get turned on. I find them hot. I’ve been in friendships before with women who talk about and expose in conversation just how soulless they are. How they don’t care about men, how they actively seek to hurt their feelings, how they love-bomb, how they offend them, how they cross boundaries. And I find myself obsessed with them constantly.

I have always wanted to have an abusive friendship. I have been a victim of manipulation in the past, but I don’t want just that. I want full on abuse. I want to be gaslighted into thinking my traumas were my fault. I want to be told that women can’t cross boundaries, and that if it feels like they are, it’s my fault. And that I should feel “lucky” if a woman comes onto me.

But I don’t want it to feel one dimensional. I want it to happen slowly over time, seeing you gradually gain less and less empathy for my pain, and blaming me more and more for it. Gradually going from “She shouldn’t have said that to you” to “Maybe she had a rough day” to “Women can’t make sexual advances that are non consensual”. I want you to ruin my worldview.

I understand that we live in a world where women suffer everyday in ways that men don’t. Deep down, it’s comforting when women understand that guys suffer too, just in different ways. But you women suffer enough that you should have an outlet.

Let me be your outlet. Ridicule me, abuse me, slap me (if you live around here 😭), make it clear that you’re better than me and that I am worthless.

Now, I do still want to be able to have conversations and time together where we can get along. I want to feel cared about, and I want you to know that I care about you as well. I want us to actually be friends. Women switching from kind and sweet to psycho-manipulative will never not scare me, but I like that it does.

Let me be your outlet.

I would like to use discord for voice calls and messaging if this is something you would enjoy.

Send a chat request if you’re interested.