Hi, im not very experienced in this kind of thing, but I know I tried being dominant in the past and felt no enjoyment from it, to the point of no blood flowing downwards even, conversely, the number of times I've heard the words good boy, or had my hair pulled, have lead to a quite inverse result.

Got over a breakup with an ex recently and while im not feeling anything towards her anymore, my biggest love language is physical touch and I am struggling without it, so at the moment I mainly desire someone I can just lay next to and cuddle, of course i want more, but it would satisfy me

I am 180cm, aroung 100kg, so a little chubby, about sholder length hair that i prefer messy, a brard that i plan on either having styled or shaving off soon, and i am also quite disabled with adhd, autism, and a heart condition i developed in childhood, however, it does not prevent me from reclined activities, just more up and about ones.

My ideal dom would be around 20-36, within 50km and can drive (as i can not with the symptoms from my heart condition), preferably smaller than me but taller than me kneeling, any kind of bossy personality, i havent seen a dominant personality in a woman i havent liked,

I mainly enjoy spending time reading, watching shows and crafting and would very much enjoy having someone to spend my time with who i can listen to and fulfil the desires of, someone i can be devoted to, trust, and feel connected with.

I enjoy most bdsm play exclusing scat play, waterspouts, and blood play, and probably some more but do not have the experience to know. My biggest turn on is things being taboo, in the sense of being teased and denied, flashes of erotic nature but nothing outright shown not being allowed to look or only being allowed to see partially or "accidental" flashes, so I'd probably really like blindfolds, there is more to the taboo turn on than that but it fits it best.

I have had issues with online or long distance relationships in the past so im afraid that is not for me, however i am ok with starting out online while getting to know someone, just hopefully someone to cuddle with soon after that haha, thank you for taking the time to read.