Hi there!

I'm posting today because I am looking for a long term FLR dynamic ultimately.

I am 34, white, chubby 225lbs, cute face, glasses. I would look pretty dang great with a simple workout routine but it's hard to stay disciplined. Hence where I'm posting lol.

I have been interested specifically in FemDom since I was very young. Part childhood issues, part self exploration has led me to seeking to give my body, and mind to someone who knows what to do with it!

My last relationship ended after COVID, I've since moved back home in a HCOL area. I work full time evenings, and night owls are very much welcome. I am not married. I don't have kids.

I have never truly had a relationship that focused on or around BDSM. I have in the past been masking my submission. I have had to play the role of "vanilla top" in my relationships. Today I am leading with my kinky foot.

I have a book on submission that helps validate my feelings that I've been a bit confused with for so long and it's helped me get my sea legs so to speak.

Some random vanilla facts about me: I am generally honest and happy. I whistle songs often, and I have a pretty good grip on reality. While I don't come from the best of homes, each day is a new one, and I am always embracing learning opportunities.

When I'm not working, I'm usually at home. Stuffed into my headphones at my computer. I play some games with friends and hangout on discord. I doodle and draw. I have a couple succulents I keep alive 🌵

If you were to click my profile and dig through my comments, you can see that I actively try to engage with the BDSM community. It may appear that I might know it all or something, but that is just my public face on reddit. I am in no way shape or form a brat. I understand brats are a special breed. I do not want that for me, or for my Domme.

To me, BDSM, submission, deep intimate acts are almost sacred. I don't participate with just anyone, and I'm fairly careful to protect both my brain and my heart when it comes to new relationships. I often wear my heart on my sleeve and have a history of chronic oversharing and rambling. Can you tell? Ha.

My ideal Domme: is not a kink dispenser.

My ideal partner: is someone who has the time and capacity to truly get to know someone, and care for them on a deep level. My ideal partner won't get upset when I send a million text messages, and two selfies. Someone who is easy to talk to, but can convey a role in which they are in charge.

So, you've done all this reading. You have a chubby white dude with a small peepee, who is deeply romantic and thoughtful. Is that your type, physically?

How about kink wise?

I am someone who lives vicariously. The idea that I can get satisfaction from making my partner feel things that are intense is very uplifting for me. On the other side of the token, I am also someone who wants my orgasms taken away entirely. I do, truly, want to be a denied, and drooling mess. Maybe bound. Maybe gagged. Those thoughts excite me.

Things that make my partner happy, make me happy. Do you enjoy watching and hearing me beg and squirm? Do you like it when I address you as your formal Title? Do you like knowing you could have someone do just about anything for you?

I haven't found the era of gentle femdom to be for me. I am not saying I'm a huge masochist. But I do get excitement from bondage. Tools. Gags. Toys. Scenes.

I desperately want to let go. I'm trying very hard to protect myself and not get carried away, but really I just want someone to hold my head and dunk me in the river or submission. To know my goals and desires are welcomed, warmly. To not feel like I'm fighting a current making my dreams come true.

I want to explore. I want to feel. I want to have fun. And I want to love.

My love languages definitely are acts of service. Cooking food. Doing chores. Making sure I have, and add value to the household.

I have seen on the reddit how much of a burden these relationships can be, and I've also seen how amazingly beautiful they can be. I will do everything in my power to not make things difficult.

At the same time, maybe you'd want to hear all about my random facts, or jokes. Maybe you DON'T want a doormat. I like to think I am my own person, I just had some hiccups and need a helping hand. In the form of a paddle. Lol. And maybe a chastity cage.

Anyway. I am me. I try to love my life quietly and creatively. If you are interested in getting to know me just reach out 😊 I don't bite. Ever. Never have never will lol.

Tell me about your favorite games!? Tell me about, a time you felt public embarrassment. Tell me about a horrific kink story. Tell me something interesting so I can reciprocate that same energy 😊

I hope to hear from you!