In my previous posts I was searching for a potential romantic partner, but as I learned more about myself, I recognize that I need to be able to have a safe space in friends, and not just romantic partners. I think I had associated romantic intimacy with a safe space and felt that it was very difficult to find the same safe space in friends and not in a romantic partner. Generally I've been struggling with loneliness. I know I have people who care and are there for me but I don't feel comfortable with anybody that I know currently to be vulnerable with. I'm really looking for somebody who I can feel vulnerable with and not feel judged as I do with most people. I often feel misunderstood, and it feels risky to confide myself in most people. I know I have people, but oftentimes I don't feel like it's not what I need (e.g. comfort, affirmations) which sometimes ultimately just leads to me crying alone. I hope to find a connection where I feel safe. I want to note that I'm not looking for somebody to trauma dump on, I genuinely seek a two-way connection where I want to provide value, and I'd love to be there for you when you have troubles too.

That's what I'm here for today. I'm looking for an empathetic friend where I can (hopefully) feel vulnerable and safe with, so hopefully if I sound like an interesting person to you or someone you might want to hang out with, here's some stuff about me.

Some of my favorite traits I like in other people.

1. Kindness, or at least kindness towards me
2. Being open-minded
3. Humility (and in reverse, I despise egotism)
4. Energy (but not to say that I don't like people who are not energetic!)

Personality (Ripped straight from my old post): I think if you wanted to oversimplify my personality, I'd say I'm like a loyal, affectionate, energetic, but insecure puppy. But that's an oversimplification, there's a lot of peculiar things about me. I'm an ESFP-T if know about MBTI. I'd like to think that I'm a relatively kind and understanding person, and I try to have good intent when it comes to life, but everyone is capable of both good and evil, and I am no exception. I generally give off soft boy vibes but I try not to be a pushover. generally super soft, empathetic, and caring. when i get excited about things, i tend to get loud/hyper without realizing it (it's something i'm somewhat insecure of) i'm a very understanding person sometimes to a fault. generally i'm on the lower end of self-esteem/confidence, but I actively attend therapy which has helped me come a long way. While I wouldn't consider myself emotionally unstable, I do think it's important to note that I'm relatively feminine for a guy and I am more prone to mood swings.

Interests / Hobbies: I'm a typical nerd, I like anime and gaming. My favorite anime is probably Made In Abyss and in general I like fantasy and romance as favorite genres. Some of my current favorite games include: Valorant and Legends of Runeterra. Some games I have liked/played a lot in the past include: Minecraft, CS:GO, Rocket League, LoL, R6S, DbD, Monster Hunter World, Fortnite, etc... I think I'd be interested in picking up more Fortnite, possibly Minecraft, and mayyybe LoL/RL? This is more just a convo starter than a set in stone preference. I also like a lot of other things, I listen to a LOT of music, generally I have a broad taste. I enjoy aspects of fashion, I'd love to get more into it. I also used to enjoy custom mechanical keyboards a decent amount, and lately, I've been having fun experimenting with gaming mice & everything related. Totally different from everything I've said but I'd love to play Volleyball a lot more, I think it's one of the only sports I genuinely enjoyed. I think I could say a lot of things more, but I'll keep it at this for now. If you'd like to get to know me more, or have a question if I take interests in any other topics, feel free to message me <3

Oh, and if you want to look at my old posts, I have posts that tell more about me, but are probably more related to finding a romantic partner, but you may find that information helpful!