hi hi.

this is going to be chaotic and all over the place probably so plz bear w me.

okay, where to begin…

i fell down a little rabbit hole 2 nights ago that sort of opened my mind to new ideas / fantasies / thoughts/ daydreams / all of it. you see, i’ve been interested in kink & bdsm for several years and have partaken in it throughout various ways (irl & online) but always with men. never women. girls. idk!! i wouldn’t consider myself 100% straight but for whatever reason i’ve never allowed myself to really explore the sometimes fleeting thoughts in the back of my mind that revolve around crushing on a girl here and there. it scares me. makes me feel shy & mega uwu nervous. maybe even more so than men to a certain degree.

but i stumbled upon someone’s post from a Dominant female’s perspective and it kind of broke my brain a little bit, if i’m to admit it. realizing that some girls may also possess those same qualities or characteristics i usually seek out or am attracted to in a guy: potentially sadistic, degradation, humiliation, ageplay(?), collars, whips, canes, bondage, etc — most classic bdsm-esq things i suppose you could say, but to think about a girl being interested in that from the other side, and potentially wanting to engage in that way with mE? is alone too much to handle. i’m so shy. so shy. and never really ever talk to girls and never have in this way before. but allowing myself to think about this and fantasize about it kind of is driving me momentarily a little wild. i guess it has started to make me feel a little girl crazy, for lack of better words, for the first time in my life. exploring my bi-curious side.

anyways, let’s see. ok. i do have a bf! who is kind of my daddy. so i’m definitely not looking for a third or something like that. not looking for you and him to have any type of dynamic / relationship, just me being a greedy little girl really. maybe i want you both. maybe i just want to explore a new side of myself and make a friend and see where it goes? i’m not sure of the limits yet. just that the idea of having a Domme friend who is a girl who is interested in being domme-y with me but accepting that i also have Daddy kind of makes me feral and feel like i just might lose my mind from arousing and exciting overstimulation, hehehe.

ok what else! we can exchange pics if you’d like at some point? i’ve also never voice chat w a girl before so uhM maybe at some point down the line that could happen too but plz i’m srs i am so shy girls make me so damn nervous idk why uGH i can’t help it! be gentle with me please, i beg…

so yeah not sure exactly the specifics of what i’m looking for it’s kind of complex and at the end of the day i guess it could boil down to being friends or maybe a teensy something more? flirty lil gfs perhaps? idk!! also i am smol bb sometimes annnndddd am not a switch at all. i want 2 be the one who is always at the bottom hehe ok ty 4 reading if you made it this far & hopefully i haven’t scared you away!!!

— fueled by too much sugar i just ate 🧚🏻‍♀️🦋🌙

p.s also yes my bf knows about this! and i’m cute just sayiNG