hello there! i am looking for a meaningful connection/relationship.

please don't message me if you're primarily or only interested in the kink aspect of this possible connection

i'm not looking to immediately jump into a serious relationship, first i'm looking for somebody i can connect with. i hope to find somebody i can feel that safety with and have a warm connection with. I'm looking for a genuine connection with kink not being a primary factor for our connection. I'm not interested into kink or getting into a relationship right out of the gate, but rather a slower build up of trust and love. While I'm looking for a partner in the long run, I want to start as friends and only continue further if it's something we both feel is right. (If you're only looking for a friendship, please clarify that asap so no feelings get hurt!)

Generally I've been struggling with loneliness... I know I have people who care and are there for me but I don't feel comfortable with anybody that I know currently to be vulnerable with. I'm really looking for somebody who I can feel vulnerable with and not feel judged as I do with most people. I often feel misunderstood, and I feel like I can't go to anyone, well I know I have people, but oftentimes I don't feel like it's not what I need (e.g. comfort, affirmations) which sometimes ultimately just leads to me crying alone. I hope to find a connection where I feel safe. I want to note that I'm not looking for somebody to trauma dump on, I genuinely seek a two-way connection where I hope that I also can be helpful or have value somehow.

Here are some things about me which may or may not be important to you.

Physical: Half Chinese half Viet 5'11'', black hair leaning towards long hair (long for a guy, short for a girl). I have dark brown eyes, glasses, with an average weight profile with an ever so slightly lean towards chubby more than skinny.

Personality: I think if you had to describe my personality very simply, I'd say I'm like a loyal, affectionate, energetic, but insecure puppy. I'm more than just though, there's a lot of things peculiar about me. (ESFP if that helps) I'd like to think that I'm a relatively kind and understanding person, and I try to have good intent when it comes to life, but everyone is capable of both good and evil, and I am no exception. I generally give off soft boy vibes but I try not to be a pushover. generally super soft, empathetic, and caring. when i get excited about things, i tend to get loud/hyper without realizing it. i'm a very understanding person sometimes to a fault. generally i'm on the lower end of self-esteem/confidence, but I actively attend therapy which has helped me come a long way. While I wouldn't consider myself emotionally unstable, I do think it's important to note that I'm relatively feminine for a guy and I am more prone to mood swings.

Hobbies/interests: I'll keep this relatively short and you can find out more by talking to me, but things I like include the usual gaming/anime/music/etc to other nerdy shit like custom mechanical keyboards and honestly a small interest in fashion/anything self expression related I'm sure there's more but I can't think of them on the top of my head... I'm relatively curious and interested in learning new things. Oh, I really like tech in general too.

Kink/Femdom part: I think I have a lean towards gentle femdom, but I do like a lot of aspects of "traditional" femdom. My main love languages are probably words of affirmation and quality time to give you an idea of me (with physical touch probably coming in third). i do NOT like anything extreme or humiliation/degradation related and I'm not looking for an a power dynamic, I'm not opposed to all aspects of it but generally our value and how we both view each other should be equal. Some traits/things I find myself attracted to are: selective kindness (being more gentle or kind with me than to others), emotional intelligence, emotional stability, humility or at least somewhat being open-minded (I hate egoists), and an affectionate/supportive mindset.

A warning/disclaimer that I feel the need to disclose is that I am progressing (relatively) slow in life. I'm 23, but I'm unemployed and still live with mom, though I have been applying for many jobs. I am VERY aware of this and honestly sometimes feel ashamed about it, but I also understand people move at different paces in life. One of my main goals in my life right now is to gain independence (both in the sense of financially and general independence). I do my best to move myself forward, even if it's just one step at a time.

Thank you for reading all of this, if you have any questions about anything at all please don't hesitate to message me! Even the questions you might think are "weird" I promise I won't think they are. Regardless whether it's me or not, I hope you have a lovely rest of your day and good luck on your search.