Hi, I have posted here before and I have had trouble finding someone truly like minded, so I am going to try being as descriptive and direct as possible to hopefully find someone who resonates with this. Fair warning, I discuss CNC in my post, so if that triggers you please refrain from reading.

Outside of kink I am a really normal, well-mannered and well-adjusted guy. No one would ever guess that since I was a kid I was having depraved fantasies of my crushes doing unspeakable things to me. I discovered the concept of an FLR when I was around 16, and I knew IMMEDIATELY that this was the lifestyle I not only wanted but needed. I am attracted to bossy and aggressive women, but I also crave for them to have some kind of sweet spot for me, and actually care for me.

What I want is to find someone that will allow me to make her my total Princess / Queen, to completely simp over her as she willingly feeds into this and makes me totally obsessed. I know kink should have healthy limits, but I have always craved (and been jealous of others experiencing) something a little more real, where my partner wields some tangible level of control over me. If it were possible to legally enslaved to someone, knowing myself, I know that is inevitably exactly where I would find myself. I have had dreams of my future partner taking total control of the finances, only giving me an allowance as she sees fit, monitoring my every move and electronic devices - I see this as the ultimate affection. A deep part of me craves the security and comfort of being truly controlled. I want to be mentally and physically addicted to you, so attached that I could not see my life without you. For that reason the idea of a total power exchange dynamic has always been the thing that gets me the most excited. If an amazing kind woman who actually cares about me decided to lock me in her basement for a year and train me with chastity and other methods to be totally dependent and obsessed with her, I would feel like I had won the lottery.

It's no secret that a lot of women have experienced relationships like this, where they are "taken", occasionally forced (hopefully consensually), dominated, and brought to an extremely submissive headspace by their aggressive/dominant partners. I simply want the role reversed version of that. Excuse me for being crass, but to paint the picture of what I long for - in the same way that some submissive girls want to be aggressively taken and throat fucked, I viscerally crave a dominant woman to pin me down and force her nipple into my mouth and order me to suck, not taking no for an answer and being very aggressive, or even violent, slapping me, pulling my hair, pinching my nose and not letting me breathe until I suck on her while she yells at me to be a good boy. In the same way some girls get to experience an aggressive guy coming home with pent up sexual frustration and ravaging them, taking out their frustrations of the day out in pure primal dominance; I crave to someday greet a woman of this temperament at the door after a stressful day, only to have her roughly grab me by the collar and shove me against the wall in a spark of unrestrained entitlement over my body.

I imagine being aggressively seized, shoved against surfaces, used as living catharsis to soothe any of her frustrations through acts of rough ravishment and discipline. Yet I equally crave the sweeter moments of aftercare and domestication where she softens into my nurturing mommy - soothing away the sting of correction with tender affirmations of how perfectly I endured in service to her needs. To live this consensually entered dynamic beyond mere recreational kink... to truly be owned in that encompassing sense on every plane of body and mind... is the most intoxicating submission I can imagine.

I will conclude by expressing my sincerest hopes for what I yearn for. To find a nurturing yet firmly authoritative Mommy willing to engage in a deeply psychologically transformative dynamic - essentially re-raising me to her standards. Ideally this process would transcend mere roleplaying, nurturing an authentic Mommy-dom dynamic where I regress to a childlike headspace in her powerful presence. My core identity could be lovingly reshaped through reward/reinforcement/punishment into the flawlessly obedient companion she desires. Outside of all this, I would hope to have a loving and fulfilling romantic connection, going out on dates and living well-rounded lives together.

I know this might seem quite taboo or extreme to some people, but the circumstances of my life made me this way, and I am hoping its possible to experience this kind of relationship in a committed, monogamous, caring bond with someone. If this resonated with you please reach out, and I will share a picture of myself :)

Hard Limits: - bodily waste / blood - blood / permanent harm / extreme pain - sounding

Unsure on but willing to try: - Pegging