My name's Renarde, and I'm finally picking up the pieces that it was broken into over the past nine years and discovering that when I put those pieces back in the order that I wanted, instead of in the order they were, that all those times over the years, that I am indeed trans and that a reason why I'm so miserable all the time is because I've been in denial. However, now that I'm finally getting on my feet, I remember that I haven't been truly held in years, or even had a flirty conversation in a very long time. Problem is that, because of the position I'm in, getting a date is proving pretty difficult and I realize that what I need is a friend, someone that I can talk to, where the option is open. So that, if a relationship does happen, it's grown into as a function of our friendship, if that makes sense.

My type of woman varies, like, I don't really /have/ a 'type,' outside of women that exude confidence and big dick energy, while still being a kind, gentle, warm and inviting person. So, what I'm essentially looking for is a soft femdom dynamic with a cis woman. I don't want you to run my life, or mold me or anything; I've been strong for my entire life, to the point where I've damaged my life rather than expose weakness. My position has been precarious for so long, that I just want to be held by a strong, assertive woman that will give me a space where I don't need to be strong, where I can drop my guard, give them my entire trust and know that I'm safe. Fetishes and kinks outside of that are totally incidental, what I just wrote previous to this sentence is exactly what I'm looking for.

I'm 39 years old with long, natural red hair and soft features. I have grey eyes and though thin, I'm not really in shape (though I am working on that). I'm an active reader and need you to be as well. I have a college education from a University of Wisconsin, with two degrees (English and Education), and though I did study to be a teacher, that didn't work out due to my inability to keep discipline in my classes. I have a full time job, a car and I live in Orange County. I'm very serious about my political principles (I always say, what's the point of having principles if you don't live by them?), and though I'm perfectly cool dating liberals/Democrats, I would prefer someone further to the Left. Myself, I identify as an Anarcho-syndicalist (a stateless society that is created and maintained through widespread unionization) As what I want initially is just someone to talk to, no expectations at all, you can be from anywhere but please, despite my desire to emigrate to Europe, I'd rather you be somewhere in the contiguous United States. Keep in mind that I don't want to stay in California any longer than I absolutely have to, love dark and dreary and cool and cold weather and want to move to the northern midwest.