I've come to accept that I'm best with a bossy mommy domme type. I say it this way because it was hard for me to accept. I'm reluctant to admit that it came from a strict upbringing with a very alpha mother.

Because of that I learned how to keep a home, clean, cook and I find calm when doing chores around the home. Direct instructions and a list of chores are my happy place.

I’m well read and constantly learning but I’m also very active and love to exercise. My theory is I’m subconsciously hiding what I feel- while I’m tall, muscular and very masculine looking, I melt at the idea of being under the thumb of a bossy, finger wagging, strict, condescending strong woman.

I won’t say if the idea of alphas and betas are a thing but I’ll admit the idea of being emotionally dependent on a woman that deigns to let me ramble on about how amazing she is sounds perfect.

There is a physical side to these types of relationships. Yes, there is that, but I’ve always felt the emotional aspect is much deeper. You can whip a man, tie him up and rake your fingernails down his chest or paddle him until he’s cherry red, but nothing is more powerful than the emotional domination a woman has over a man. I’m strong and can take a lot of the former but the idea of being broken down to tears, afraid to even look at her because of a few words or a patronizing smile really gets me. Any trace of bossiness or scolding and I’m completely disarmed.

In real life I’m very independent (probably why I’m like this) and my life is full and active. I work in creative and tech, I’ve lived and traveled around the US and have friends all over I try to see as much as I can. I know a lot about a few things and I’m devoted to my family and friends. On top of it all I’ve got a great smile and a cute butt.