Hellu,

I am Lilith, a submissive and masochistic trans girl. (I am cute too, proof is on my profile)

I am looking for a long term relationship. I have been trying to find what i am looking for a bit now. But but it mostly failed do to my insecurities, angst and anxieties. But i don’t want to give up, and i figured it is probably best to be upfront about everything. But first lets get to the good parts!

In an ideal world, what would our relationship look like for me?

A personal, intimate relationship were we both can share our joys, fears/worries, or just some everyday stuff. We can hang out, play video games or watch a tv show together. A close friendship or even more; a romantic relationship, since i do tend to fall for my Doms. But at the same time with focus on a clear power exchange being present at all times. Where you have complete authority over me. You give me rules and tasks to follow. These will be good for me, remind me of my place, or just purely for your enjoyment. It will have consequences if i don’t obey. You train me to become your perfect little pet. You can take control over my life and transform me into a good puppy girl.

I can still share my opinions and feelings, but you make the final decisions. That said i do still want them to matter in this relationship, just not as much as yours.

In the end i am your pet i follow your commands, rules and orders even if i disagree or don't like something. Sometimes you just wanna mistreat me and be sadistic with me, other times you comfort me and support me. But that also goes the other direction where there will be times when i will comfort you in any way i can. My ultimate goal would be for you to own me in a TPE dynamic as well as a wholesome close relationship.

Of course I think it is important to keep realistic expectations of both sides. Our lives will interfere and we are both only human. But i do believe it is achievable, if we approach this with realistic expectations, taking our time to build this up and with honesty and good communication.

The Kinky stuff

I have only made limited amount of experiences. I am open to try anything that isn’t one of my limits. I want to explore a lot of things with you and get your support to get as depraved and perverted as i feel in my heart. That said, i absolutely adore Bondage (especially rope and leather bondage) and Petplay; as you probably noticed, i would love to have a Owner/pet Dynamic with the things that come with that: Cages, eating out of bowl, bitchsuit, speech restriction, walking on all fours. The role as pet comes very natural to me.

Qualities i am looking for in my Dom

• Strict
• Sadistic
• Caring
• Experienced
• Detail oriented
• Patience
• Knows how to deal with mental health

I wish for you to be older and located in Europe.

The non Kinky stuff

I am a person who prefers Indoor activities. I like video games (mainly retro and indie games), anime and manga/manhwa, I also like cooking. I love going to cafe's and reading or gaming there. I really hope to connect over these topics as well.

I am a very passionate woman, even about smaller topics. I have strong opinions and feelings. I am a calm and patient person, I don't swear or talk loud. I dislike unspoken expectations. I usually have to take my time to be sure about how I feel about something or someone. I can be shy in group settings but pretty outspoken in one on one conversations. I am a very open person about all things in my life, i don’t like to hide myself and my feelings.

The difficult Part

I have tried to post similar versions of this ad, or post with a completely different approach. Maybe you have seen some of them. This time i want to be very upfront about everything.

One problem i am facing, is that i have bad chronic pain, they are a complicated Headaches, that often cause me blurry vision and dizziness. They are there everyday but some days are worse then other. I think there are ways to deal with that in the dynamic. Because of them i also cannot work, which gives me a lot of free time to hopefully make up for the bad days. I have some ideas how to deal with this in the dynamic effectively.

The other bigger problem is my mental health. Especially with my anxiety disorder. And that has caused me to run away from previous attempts and i am really sad about that. I want this type of life for so long so bad, but i think because of that i tend to overthink a lot. Most of it comes with the topic of sex and sexuality. I am so unsure and anxious about that topic. We probably will talk more about the reasons. I do want to explore sex and my sexuality, but i probably need someone with patience and understanding. But that process could take time. I am also back i Therapy to work on this with a professional. (i don’t want you to become my therapist)

What i bring

• Passion
• Obedience and Submission
• Cuteness
• Dedication

The Finish

This is something i have been dreaming over 10 years about. I am very dedicated to make this work! I will take my time with the vetting Process. If a relationship similar to what I described, is something you desire, and you are also dedicated to it DM me! I would love to hear from you what you liked about my post. And please use the word “purple” so i know you read my post and i can weed out.

~Lilith~