I love denial, I already live in denial most of the time. My longest time without an orgasm was 13 months. I think I'm about 2 months. I edge my clit as much as possible, I play with it or torture whenever I'm home. All I do is think about my swollen throbbing clit, but I know I never deserve to orgasm. Frankly, I deserve punishment for every orgasm I've ever had. I'm vibing my pumped clit right now just riding the edge, and I can't imagine how it would feel to lose my clit. No more orgasms, so more desperation and ability to be a good whore. I should have lost my clit as punishment for cumming after over a year, but now I'm making up for it.