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I’ve always used my hood to masturbate by rubbing it against my glans. As I’ve modified it over the years, I’ve lost so much sensation, and that’s a good thing. I like to think about all the tissue that’s was carved away when it was freshly removed. Just sitting there containing thousands of now-severed nerve endings that will never bring me pleasure again. The juxtaposition of the pain I endured when I did it on my own is enthralling to this day.

Only the longest part of my prepuce and the skin under it on my shaft give me significant pleasure, and soon that will be gone as well, hopefully.

I did my own VCH in 2015ish with the intent to stretch it, split the tissue below it (upper right) and then use that to cut the hood off in two triangles. I severed the connecting tissue in the summer of 2020. In the fall of 2022 and spring of 2023, I removed a great deal of my hood over three sessions, and amputated about a third of my hideously long right labia in a fourth. It left my hood extremely asymmetrical. I had a metoidioplasty in fall 2023. This summer, I requested as much tissue to be removed as possible and for it to be symmetrical, but as you can see, nowhere near enough was cut. It’s not yet fully healed so that’s why it’s as chunky as it is and the bumps are from the sutures. I fully intend to have the remaining prepuce removed next year to resemble a “low and tight” male circumcision.

How much comes off in my next procedure largely depends on what the surgeon is willing to do, but if he isn’t on board with doing what I want I plan to seek out another practitioner to get it done after I’m discharged. I want it tight enough that there’s no overhang when I’m soft and I can feel the engorged tissue straining to expand against my skin when I’m aroused. My ideal capacity for sensation is enough that I can get hard and feel pleasure, but not enough that reaching orgasm is an easy task. It can already be hard as I am now. Honestly, I’d be quite happy if it even wasn’t sensitive enough that I could ever get over the edge and truly have a full orgasm and all my climaxes were nothing more intense than edging or ruined orgasms.

My primary motivation for circumcision is to remedy my dysphoria. I’m American and from a religion that mandates all its men be fully circumcised and I don’t believe being trans gives me an exception from that obligation. So for me, it will never be the penis I need it to be as long as the glans isn’t fully exposed, even when I’m soft. It’s still a clitoris in my mind.

Secondarily, and much more in line with this sub’s fetish, it’s because I masturbate too damn much and having the ability to have powerful orgasms has proven to not be something I can responsibly handle. If I can’t get control over how frequently I touch myself, then a physical intervention must be made. Fully removing my prepuce, both outer and inner, given all its sensitivity, is the easiest option. Since my glans has pretty much been entirely exposed for 18 months, it’s lost a lot of sensitivity and I’m actually not sure if stimulating it alone could make me cum. We’ll see if I can retrain myself to cum with just my glans or if becoming fully circumcised renders me anorgasmic. To be physically incapable or orgasm…held in a constant state of arousal with no ability to release it…how tantalizing.

Yes - there is a significant risk that completely amputating my prepuce could result in never being able to have a full, honest orgasm again. Or maybe even get to the point where I’m on the edge of one. But that is a risk I am willing to take in order to have this part of my body look the way I need it to and be able to live my life without constantly needing to touch myself.

I must be cut. I will be cut.