I haven't orgasmed in so long and honestly it's completely worthless. I don't ever get to orgasm, and that's all my clit really provides. My clit only gets used for torture, but if there's even a risk of an orgasm I think it might be a better idea to remove it. If I get it removed I can be a fuck toy. I just want to serve as a fleshlight and get tortured without ever receiving pleasure. Permanently denied is what I need. Every time I get close to cumming my mind says that I don't ever deserve to orgasm again. I pumped my clit and tied it up tight so it goes numb and I can't play with it, but I'm imagining just nothing there so I can't even edge.