As the first stage to metoidioplasty (yes, I know, not nullification), I'm having a vaginectomty. Thankfully, it's going to be complete can removal as opposed to epithelial ablation. So it will be completely gone. It's also combined with removing my right ovary which was intentionally left inside me during hysterectomy last summer. (The dysphoria I got knowing I had it wasn't worth keeping it for the possibility I wouldn't be able to take testosterone.) I'm currently scheduled for 2/28, so just a few days left!

It feels weird to be so sexually aroused knowing that I'll have had all my internal reproductive organs removed, being neutered, but considering how awful the dysphoria I get about having female sex organs, I'll take any positivity feelings about my body that I can get. Even though it's not how my procedure is being done, imagining my uterus, tubes, ovaries, and vaginal canal all in the metal bowl often used for removed organs makes my clit hard. I'm so looking forward to not getting wet from arousal, as that disgusts me. My external vulva will be the only remaining structure. Figured the people here would understand the feelings I'm having.

There's the possibility it gets cancelled bc I had a covid exposure this Monday, but so far my rapid tests have been negative. All depends on a PCR within 72h of the surgery.