I kinda understand how I got to this point, but I’m kinda tired of always getting ganged up on by my ED (that isn’t one, I’m finE), self hate, body dysmorphia, gender dysphoria, internalised transphobia and internalised misogyny.

It isn’t really a fair fight and it feels like living with different people in my head, somewhere somewhen somehow they came to the conclusion that I only want to work out for vanity, which isn’t even wrong but of course I’m not allowed to do it, but that’s not even the reason I want to do it, but now I can’t?

I guess this sounds cope-y but it’s not I swear, is there a way I could trick myself into feeling less ashamed for wanting to do sports?