She has been the only thing that makes me happy in life, now she doesn't want to see me or talk to me. We used to talk everyday and about everything, hang out alone a lot, she even invited me to go to a star observation just the two of us from sunset to sunrise with sleeping in a tent together, so you know, I thought there was something between us but I thought that even if she doesn't want we can still be friends like the last 4 years. I am truly alone and even though I know i need to get over it and continue life as normal, I feel empty in a way I don't know how to explain. I think I am gonna throw away my phone and disconnect from all social media and such.