But school is no more and I am lonely af, also I fucked it up with my crush, texted her I like her but she doesn't likes me back and she was my best and only good friend, she was the main person I hung out with and now I am waiting for us to talk about it but I am scared our friendship will never be the same.

I am broken over her and I don't know how I will handle if she gets distanced from me. I am unmotivated recently and I just can't allow that to myself.

And I don't have anything to do, I have one nice friend to smoke with and that's it. Basically no one else to hang out except once in a while when my two other friends want to and have the energy which is rare.