Hi guys! I have a 10 hour flight from London to Jamaica on Thursday. I’ve been up and down with anxiety for weeks . The last few days I have been reading peoples posts on here and have felt a little calmer but before bed last night I checked the weather in JA and it says there will be thunderstorms when I land and throughout my stay. Im now convinced that it’s gonna be a really bumpy flight with lots of dips. I feel like I’m gonna be trapped for such a long time. I’m from the UK so no m e d s.

I’m going with my sister who isn’t the most patient person and I really don’t want to embarrass her. I’m also worried that even once I reach that I will be panicking every day about flying home and spoil the holiday.

I haven’t gone away for 8 years but really considering cancelling as I don’t even know if I can push myself to get on the plane! I even hate how busy the airport is and the sight of the plane! I only took the step to book my ticket because 1 I’m sick of missing out on travelling the world and making memories because of my fear and 2 my father recently had a stroke so really need to see him( he lives over there). My ticket cost over £1300 (it was booked last minute) and I really don’t want to waste that money by not being able to face my fear.

I couldn’t even sleep last night and woke up with sweats , shakes and tears about it this morning.

Any tips for pushing through or words of encouragement would be amazing . I have no one to talk to about how I’m feeling and feel pretty alone and pathetic.