Idk why, i'm not tryna make this come off as a fetish or anything like that. Just realized over the past year or two with the 2-4 past partners I've had. I got into rubbing love handles and grabbing women's belly like I'm grabbing a pair of hips. I also have a weird thing for sticking my finger in there belly button as we cuddle. It turns me on a bit but I love feeling up on a soft woman. The women I've been dating I wouldn't really consider bbw's just plus sized, all besides one because she was around 300lbs. Most girls I've been seeing over the past two years I would say are probably 30-50lbs over the recommended weight of there BMI which I really love to see. I don't wanna say BMI, I know a lot of people get pissed over that. I can't really find a way to explain how plus sized they are any other way. also the fact that BMI Is becoming obsolete due to the fact that most people who are into fitness are considered overweight or obese by BMI. This is due to the body weight made from muscle. I just really like a woman who like to hangout and is fun to hangout with and I seem to do well with plus sized women because I really don't care about weight size or anything. Ive been attracted to women 400 plus and women as small as 60-80. I seem to do better with plused size because I can't see myself with thinner women and have a big preference for plus sized ever since I was a teenager. I realized while dating though that no matter what size of woman it Just seem to be a common occurrence i can't make a woman feel more comfortable while being with her and while playing with her belly and rubbing it as we cuddle? The belly button thing I stop doing cause it's weird asf. I just realized I haven't been soft with a woman in a while and it feels foreign to me. I can't really cute talk or compliment someone and I think it's just due to past relationships and not wanting to be comfortable or open up. I also have been doing a lot of things messing up like for example rubbing or brushing hair with my hand and accidentally brushing it too hard. Same thing with sex Ive been way too rough. I know I'm letting out my anger in a bad way with sex. I hope to be more gentle now but I really wanna know how to become more romantic. What do women like from a guy? I really wanna cuddle and be close with my current partner. I also wanna be become closer, I wanna talk cute and I wanna be loved on really.