I'm in big trouble, and I need your help/advice to help me get out of it.
So I just got back on my computer after a long conversation with my mother. Basically she talked about how my 18th birthday is coming up and how she's so proud of me because I'm her only son and I stayed on the right path my entire life (used to be a pretty devout muslim) and blah blah.
Eventually it came to her announcing my early birthday present: a 15 day umrah trip! yay!
I mean, only listening to her talking about religion is hard enough to bare. Just before the announcement she was explaining to me the verse of the throne, all I could do was stay quiet and nod.
I had to use all of my self-control to not blow up and tell her that this is the worst birthday present ever (actually, it's the first time she did something for my birthday) and that I'm not even a muslim anymore.
I kept re-imagining the scenario in my mind what would happen right then and there if I told her how things really are, and I just couldn't ruin her happy moment. I mean, she even had tears running down her cheeks.
The worst thing about all of this is that I was hoping to get a job this summer and save up on some cash for when I gtfo, now it looks like I won't even have time to do so.
So /r/exmuslim/, what's your opinion? What should I do? I don't think I'll be able to hold out in Saudi Arabia for 15 days.
TLDR: mom decided to surprise with an early birthday present: 15 days in Medina and Mecca for umra. And I can't tolerate that.
EDIT: I decided on telling her that I'm not going but I need excuses. Anything will do, I just need to make it believable and that I was planning on doing it already.