I have been isolated from my friends for four years because I had atheist thoughts and a spirit animal (I'm pagan now if you don't like it get out) now I'm turning 18 in October and I want to leave my family respect but thinking of what they did gets me angry and I'm not one to anger quickly but damn it I hate Islam.

It was an Ustaz that ordered my family not to let me out to go see my friends anymore making me more alone than I was before since I'm also homeschooled, I started to lose my mind then found my pagan faith, even though the gods tell me to find peace I want to walk the path of war.

It was an Ustaz that forced me into isolation It was Islamic beliefs that made my family believe I was being manipulated by Jinn And since I'm a third and last born culture dictates that I'm to stay with my family and act as the loyal servant/slave.

Every time I try to be independent they stop me, when I tried to finish a book I was pressured to finish it, they did it so much that I lost my drive and when I told them that they were glad. This year, January second I told them I'm Pagan, straight to the Ustaz again making me feel horrible, the Ustaz told my family to keep doing what I did the last time but if anything happens again they should send me to a madrasah

I tried to run away but I found out that being forced to be in a religion isn't probable cause for asylum. I'm tired but I am pissed, I try being nice to them but they still disrespect me and lie to me.

If I'm still here in this hellhole I'll start to protest to death, it's better than to be a slave to an Islamic country, I would try to protest legally but if I can't I'll still do it. I want to kick Islam in the balls for four years of teenage life lost and social deprivation. Yeah they aren't a violent religion, they are a torture religion