I voted in the Idaho primary yesterday. From previous experiences, I knew beforehand that all of the polling volunteers are women from my old ward and stake. A year or two ago, I would have been anxious and uncomfortable, but yesterday, I didn't give it much thought. When I went into my polling station, my old RS president, who I always loved, was coming out. We gave each other a big hug. None of it was forced. It was so genuine.

Walking through the line confirming my identity, my address, listening to the explanation of how to fill out a ballot, speaking with the women who I used to sit with on Sunday, I didn't feel awkward or uncomfortable once.

I realized this was because I have ZERO shame about my life. I feel so good about all of my decisions, so why would I be embarrassed to be around former ward members? Plus, I don't have any anxiety or fear of having to explain my decision. I've done it enough that I can, depending on the situation, do it quickly, set boundaries and not discuss it, have an in-depth, respectful discussion, or some combo of the three. I don't feel pressure to convince anyone I've made the right decision because I know me best, not them.

It all was just such a wonderful experience, and I walked about that polling station beaming.

That's it. It was such a small moment, but it felt like I unlocked a new level of exmormonhood. It was another confirmation to me that I have been and continue to do the right thing for me rather than trying to fit into a mold I wasn't made for.