I'll try keep this shot but i just wanted to vent.

I dated this girl for 3 years, we meet on tinder. The first year i still had my foot in the door about going to church, during that time i wanted to go to church with her. She did not want me to go with her family because her Dad is apparently "two faced" and is not a nice guy. I thought it was weird but ok, let's go to church together at my ward. She said no she did not want her Mom alone with her Dad.

I am a return missionary, was still going to church and the temple. I asked her to go on a vacation with me to California (we live in Utah) with my family and go to the beach and Disneyland. I never told her i was having doubts about the church yet. She lives at home with her mom and dad, she 27, a charge nurse at a hospital, but still had a curfew to be home at 10PM. 12AM on weekends. She told me no because she did not want to leave her mom alone with her dad for too long.

I already had my doubts about the church, my brother showed me the CES letter and that is when i really started questioning the church and I told her about my doubts. She was cool with it at first and said that we can talk about it and discuss all the questions i had. She could not explain anything and she just kinda bared her testimony to me that she knew the church was true because she has prayed and got a good feeling...

Well i told her I don't believe but I'm willing to go to church with her but i don't want to get married in the temple. We dated for a few more years. We tried to make it work, but i was not invited to her house anymore. I guess she did not want me to tell her mom I don't go to church I don't know.

We broke up after 3 years of dating. We should have a long time ago but it was nice to have a GF to cuddle and she was very attractive. It was a mutual break up because we knew it was not going anywhere.

Yesterday we were talking, she said shes going to Walt Disney World. I said sweet, and ask if shes going with family. She said no, but with a group of friends she been hanging out with at night... She never goes anywhere without her mom. She said shes going with a guy, they "haven't had the exclusive talk but they are pretty much are exclusive". So they are pretty much BF GF she told me. I asked her why did we never take trips together with my family? she said "Because deep down i knew we wouldn't work. I want things that you don't want". I ask if she knows things will work out with this guy? she said "I don't know but there is a greater possibility since we want the same things."

I just stopped texting her after that. It hit me pretty hard. Shes willing to go on a trip with a guy she just meet, than with me because i had questions about the church. Also she now is willing to leave her mom alone with her dad to go on a trip! The whole 3 years we dated we never went on one trip, never spent the night. We had sex once! I feel like i was just a place holder in her life until she meet someone better.

TLDR: Asked my GF the first year we started to date to go on Vacation with me to Disneyland she said no. Fast forward 3 years. She now has a Disney World trip planned with a guy she just meet. All because i had questions about the church and did not want to get married in the temple.