When the movie came out in 2000, I was an active TBM. I had just met the mother of my children, and we went to see it on a date. I remember how faith promoting it was at the time. I was 19, and still considering a mission to be my chosen path. I used the example of the main character finally connecting with the spirit to motivate me to humble myself, and I even tried praying the way he did to get my answers.

So, watching it tonight, it kind of triggered some things in me. I remembered that I liked the music in it, and also was reminded how Richard Dutcher's character was similar to people in my life at the time. It made me sad to watch again. Partly, because there are really sad parts, and also because I'm sad that I bought into all of this propaganda. It's funny though that I couldn't remember anything about the Elder reading anti mormon literature. I guess I blocked all that out to make room for the 'spiritual' stuff. Anyway, it's crazy to look back and compare where I was in life spiritually then, and where I am now. I wasn't the best tbm, but I wasn't a bad kid either. I didn't know where I was going. I just did as I was told, but I always had a question in my mind.

If I only knew then what I know now lol

EDIT: Can't spell. It's late lol