It sucks realizing how weak my friendship was with all my jw friends. I see them at work, and it reminds me how much it hurts to know they aren’t real friends. Would they accept me if they really knew who I really was. It’s hard and it feels like a dagger to my heart. My best friend, we cut communication because of me, I couldn’t handle having feelings for him and living my life pimo. I grew distant and cold. And boom, our friendship shattered into pieces, never have I ever experienced this. With school friends I’ve never had this much drama. I hate never being invited to thing, I feel forgotten, and not to stroke my ego but I have a much for them. I was as genuine as can be with them. But it wasn’t enough for them to want me. Honestly my situation exploded right in my face, been keeping my distance since but today I had a soft reminder on who are my real friends.