Up until now I didn't realize that it could actually come from the trauma that being raised and forced into it causes. In my fam, we were always told not to make friends with anyone outside of the religion and when we made friends within the religion, the only things we could do were talk about the bible and stuff like that. I'm getting kind of tired of having to rewire my whole brain every day about things that were programmed into me. I grew up very heavy in the practice and always pushed myself so hard to please my parents and try to make them proud only to realize that all of that didn't mean anything because they dropped me at the age of 17 as soon as I graduated high school and wanted to experience life. It's frustrating.

Sigh... anyways, all this just to say. I want to learn how to make friends better and live a normal life now. It's gonna take some time but I'm working on it, thanks for reading this far if you made it!

TLDR; did being raised a jw make it hard for you to want to/be able to make new friends? it sure makes it hard for me!