I've been PIMO for about a year now and out of curiousity I have a question for fellow PIMO and PIMI that have 'awakened' from the manipulation and ridiculousness of the Borg and broken free for a relatively long period..like a year and above... among the habits/doctrines/practices that were ingrained into you all these years while under the manipulation of the Borg which ones were the toughest to break free from and unlearn

Cause I'm out now but somethings still feel abit awkward for me like wishing my friends happy birthday...sometimes I'm watching a really violent movie or one with magic and 'spiritism' and I still feel this pang of guilt somewhere inside..also before and after I have sex I always get this weird heavy feeling in my chest and my gut

And even though I know now I'm not doing anything wrong just living my life...the thought process that was forced on me though the years in the borg still haunts me and I'm trying to figure out a way to get past it and just be over it

Ohh and I've considered therapy but I'm leaning away from that cause of the costs soo :(