I'm a PIMO living with my PIMI parent and today I have to dress up and sit through the next 2 hours of the prerecorded assembly video....Urrrghhh this is going to be the most frustrating 2 hours of my life...I was fine with the zoom meetings cause I usually just turn off my video and audio and do other stuff but this time we're all gonna be watching on our TV so I cant use my phone or something...ever since I woke up I find attending meetings, field and every spiritual activity is just irritating and extremely tiring...I only go when I'm at home tho when I'm at my university dorm I never go...also every sentence that comes out from the speaker just sounds like arrant nonsense and clownery I sometimes glance at my parent and wonder how they can listen to this crap...I was never fully PIMI even as a kid I always had issues with the org and the beliefs but back then I was too young to question anything...I only got baptized cause I was getting old and all my age mates had done it lol and I honestly can't wait till I'm done with sch, get a job and move the hell out of this frustrating hell hole

I'm sorry if I'm ranting lol I just really needed a platform to vent cause I've never actually been able to speak out how I feel...all my siblings and friends are PIMI and i have to walk on eggshells around everyone so i dont get caught...I'm soo lonely and depressed everybody but I'm working hard to be independent so I can finally fully be out and free

Thanks for listening guys :)