So I was born in and am currently a fading PIMO. Today I voted for the first time and it scared the shit out of me. I know it's the right thing to do but I was looking over my shoulder the whole way there, wore a hat, jacket, and large sunglasses, parked a couple buildings over at a subway, and still about had a heart attack when I went in the voting room at the gym (my voting location is a rec center). I've been fading for a while but there are certain things it seems that are bigger hang ups for me than others. I go to "demonic" rock concerts with my wife and don't feel a tinge of guilt. I smoke cigars with my worldly friends when we meet up to hang out. I do plenty of things that are not for witnesses. But this one is the first to scare me and I still cant bring myself to get close to any holiday whatsoever. Is this something that just goes away with time? Why are certain thing bigger hangups? I mean of anything voting should have been one of the easier things to do. Hell the GB basically told everyone to get involved in politics with that letter writing campaign to the Russians when they banned JWs. IDK maybe I just needed to vent, hopefully I'll feel better about it tomorrow, but right now my anxiety is through the roof.