When you're brought back into the room and the decision is to DF, the elders go on to say some stuff about what to do to return etc. But they create a paradox in part of their instructions and what they say makes no logical sense.

I was told not to isolate myself. So that would require me to associate with people, network, build friendships and relationships.

But doing so goes against the other instructions as far as putting on the new personality and conducting yourself as a study for example cutting off ties with worldly people. So that's a direct contradiction.

Futher they go on to describe that being at the kingdom hall is your association while quickly interjecting that you're not allowed to have contact with anyone. And now your association is just a "Hi nice to see you" .

I was in a very dark mental state and an elder told me I could call anytime, then stating that he isn't above the rules with association but I could still talk to him.

Did anyone else experience the same thing?

Part of what woke me up was the Judicial Committee and how mind bending stupid, overly personal it was and how contradictory it all was. Not a single part of it made any sense.

Plus how do the elders not see how insane they sound being so 2 faced one sentence after the other