I’m ready to leave but i’m not sure what the best course is.

I’m honestly ok with quitting cold turkey. I rarely go out in the ministry, meeting attendance is sparse. I quit pioneering. I’ve distanced myself from all my friends in the organization. Despite all this i’m still a MS and haven’t even been counseled on anything of the latter.

The main issue I have is my parents and grandparents. It’s not really a fear of being shunned by them, but rather my grandparents are very old and close to passing. It just bothers me so much, for me to think that their last thought of me was being doomed for destruction or that I had turned my backs on them. It would be really emotional for me, because like any good person, you have natural affection and love for them.

My parents maybe have a possibility of waking up, but as of now, they are very PIMI. I just know how the organization paints individuals like me, and it’s more of the thought of them thinking that i’ve gone crazy or don’t love them. Also the fact that part of my family is not JW, it has already caused so much division between that side of the family and ours, I don’t want to be “weaponized” and used against my parents by my non JW family or my parents use me as an example against my “worldly” family. Like any sane person, all i could truly wish for is ONE HAPPY FAMILY.

That’s all that’s really bothering me at this point and I don’t know how to break the news to my JW family. I thought about fading, but my parents are really PIMI and check up on me often and it would only be a matter of time before they put 2 and 2 together.

Any thoughts, suggestions?