Just a little rant after a private conversation I had today on here.

Like many here my wife and I grew up in purity culture. Classic abstinence only education if you could call it that. No anatomy education, no sex education…nothing but don’t do have sex. They knew sex felt great but were afraid to tell us out of fear we’d immediately go have sex.

Flash forward and we’ve broken free and are experiencing the sexual awakening that we should have had 20-25 years ago. We’ve entered the swinging lifestyle. This post isn’t about our decision and the risks. We are aware.

What it is about is the amount of xtians including clergy we’ve come across. I don’t care what the congregants are doing as much as the clergy. We all know there are a lot of people who go to church but don’t practice anything. Almost like the fear based indoctrination and threat of hell keeps them going. As for the clergy in the swinging lifestyle…fuck them and their bull shit hypocrisy.

They betray their congregation preaching abstinence and that sex is between one man’s and one woman while hitting up their local swinging community. We, all of us who grew up in the church, put our trust and faith in what they were saying. We felt shame for having sexual desires especially if it involved the same sex. They shamed use for acting in those desires. I’ve talked to a couple of the clergy and not one of them could answer a direct “no we teach sexual freedom” when I’d ask if they do that or teach abstinence. They wouldn’t say they teach abstinence either but their misdirection told me all I needed to know.

Sorry for the rant but I was definitely triggered today and needed to get it off my chest. I refrained from sex, or anything besides kissing, until marriage. I didn’t explore my sexuality at all despite having same sex attraction. I trusted they had the truth and feared for my salvation. I feel betrayed.