I know a lot of ex christians, but they are usually the "parents made me go to church, I didn't really think about it much" kind of Christians. I feel a little isolated being the only one I know that used to be like, so so into Christianity. Like, even more than my parents!

I loved semons, Bible study and Sunday school and took notes. I studied the bible on my own time. I always asked insightful questions when questions were called for (although, these often seemed to embarrass people). When asked for volunteers, I always did. I handed out Christian pamphlets on my own with no prompting. I went to mission trips and Bible camps. I have read the entire Bible probably a few times over. I prayed often, I read many Christian self help type books.

Now that I'm older and have had lots of therapy, I realize that 1. I'm autistic and having a rule book to constantly learn from and hear theories about was something I'm very into (I'm now the kind of person who gets really into fandoms) and 2. My parents were terribly strict, controlling and sometimes abusive people, so church was an easy way to get away from home, hang out with peers, and express myself without their influence.

Sometimes I still have all this Christian baggage on me. Like guilt over things I no longer think are immoral, a fear of hell, and it took me like a year of constantly working on it to tell myself that it's ok if I'm LGBTQ, and it's ok if others are too (I've never been hateful or said slurs or anything, but I have always had that bad feeling in your stomach when I see things "against God"). I even always make sure to capitalize God and He and Him when taking about Him because I remember how upset it made me before when people didn't. I cuss like a sailor now but I still avoid saying "G-Damn" because it's the WORST most OFFENSE cuss word.

Just wondering if anyone else was really into Christianity, and how that effected you.